Who would've thought that the soul can be all conscious when leaving the body that served him all his life.
I had an accident. I'm not dead yet, just comatose.
After a few hours of my body being asleep, I somehow managed to separate my spirit from my body. First I saw the hospital room I was in, then my grieving family outside, in the waiting room. After that I felt pulled into another world by a silver string. The world in which the soul it's evolving and it's everything that wasn't on Earth. I always had a weird attraction for the supernatural...now I was living it. I passed through a gate and I traveled through a tunnel filled with bright coloured lights, that were spinning around me like a vortex full of all feelings known to a human. I saw my childhood friends, memories long forgotten. I had one thousand of feelings in every second of that journey. It was overwhelming.I relived all my beautiful moments but also my hard and painfull ones, I felt sorrow but also pain and the anger that comes with that palsy when you do not have the one you love beside you. I was scolded for every bad thought I had when I was angry and praised for every good deed that I have made in my entire life.
I relived the passion that I knew when I met HIM but also the pain that I felt when I lost him. I was in place but actually I was nowhere. I was in a unique moment and yet in all the moments in my life. I had no secrets anymore.
At the end of my journey I heard a voice that told me : " The essence of your soul is a good one"
Then I saw that marvelous place. It was just like a forest but full of vibrations and energies both good and bad ones. It was all green but yet full of different colors. If I look behind me I can see the sun shinning brighter than ever. If I look up front I can see the darkness of the night lighted by millions of stars, a hypnotizing view. Then I heard the voice again:
" Learn my child, everything you need to learn and then return to your place on Earth. You will know both the good and the bad. Enjoy of your time here but be careful, your soul can be either strong or weak and fragile. The choice is yours of what are you going to become. You will meet in this journey both temptation and teachers. You just have to figure out who is by your side. Now go and choose your path "
I look in front of me and behind mevery, not knowing in which direction I should go. I felt attracted by the dark side with all her mysteries. Behind me the sun was clear and quiet, not much I could learn I said to myself, so I chose the dark forest that was in front of me, calling and whispering my name. As I made my first step i realized that I was pretty much looking the same but only with a slight improvement, I became a little gauzy and I felt like millions of chills inside me. I had sparks of green and violet at the end of my fingers. I raised my hand and traced a few lines in the air and it was like magic, trails of colored light remained there in the dark.
Suddenly appeared in front of me some humanoid forms gauzy and colored in a dirty brown. They were seven and they circled me. As they were looking straight into my eyes, they began whispering in a language strange and certainly unknown to me and yet as I was listening to it I began to understand it.
The seven creatures that circled me were actually the seven sins of the humanity: 1 Pride. 2 Love for silver ( money) 3. Envy, 4.Lust, 5. Greed, 6. Anger and 7. Laziness. They were talking about my soul and about how deep they have their roots inside me.
The Pride was first to talk and she said :
" I am the One that controls your actions and your thoughts. I have made you loose and also you won because of me. Go! Show me what have you learned from me and show us the true color of your soul."
In the next second I was in the sun, still in that beautiful forest, next to a river and next to HIM. The man that changed the color of my soul from white in bloody red. Because of HIM and of all the suffering that he made me feel I lost the purity that owned my soul and I felt for the first time anger, jealousy and pride.
And now I was next to HIM again. I felt how emotions were drowning me and my heart started racing just because I saw again his dark eyes. I wanted to take him in my arms, embrace him and tell him that he was the only one I have ever loved and still do. But the Pride won't let me do that. For HIM I was just a trophy, a woman he thought he would never have and when he did he just walked away, not carrying about my novice heart that was loving for the first time. I didn't had any pride back then and I told him that I want him in my life, beside me. I fought for HIM but it was in vain. HE was cruel and actually enjoying the pain he caused me...and still, as I look into his eyes all I want to do is yell how much I love him...but I keep quiet without saying a word. He looks at me and asks me what am I thinking and why am i so quiet. All I can do is smile. As I gather my courage I tell him that I was thinking at our last night we spent together and the last time I saw him. He smiles back at me in his seductive way and caressed my cheek as he told me that that night was the last time he used me, was the night he left me. I feel my anger rising and my body trembles with rage. As he looked deeply into my eyes he said to me : " Now tell me that you still love me and long for me"
I was shocked with the nerve he had. Why would I tell him that? Why admit it? Just for his amusement, so he can torture me MORE? So I look at him in my seductive way, caress his cheek and his dark hair and tell him with a cold and empty voice :" No darling, just as you, my feelings for you are long gone. It is all on the past. Don't make yourself a God in front of me just because I loved you once. Today you are nothing for me!"
He starts laughing and tells me: " No my dear, your love for him didn't passed away as you haven't passed the Forest's Test" He transform himself in that thread-like creature and says to me in a joyful tone : " Instead you passed my test. I have taught you well and my roots are deep planted in your soul.
So I was guilty of Pride.
I have failed the first test... only six more to go...
